Its been almost exactly a year since I last posted on here. Twelve months ago, I had a physical breakdown. I thought it was Multiple Sclerosis, but after a year of hospitals, tests, uncertainty, and general anxiety, I have been given a diagnosis of M.E. or, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
I am still getting to grips with it, but my head feels alot clearer. In fact, I feel like I am surfacing from a year long stupor. I am finally awake, after a year of struggling to walk more thatn a few feet. I have ditched the wheelchair, and I am using my own two feet. I shuffle along like an old man, but at least I am vertical and not horizontal – which is where I have been for most of the last year.
I will post further on this in the future…. and about other things, of course.
We’ve lots to catch up on…
I have M E, too, for about ten years now. I have also lost years through it, the early years.
It gets easier to deal with, when you take it for what it is, and not for what you’re missing.
It has made me try to redeem lost times, in the better moments: be of some consequence somehow, somewhere.
Best wishes fellow traveller
Thanks Michael,
It’s a huge adjustment. The hardest thing is finding a balance between activity and exhaustion… I don’t want to spend my life on the sofa, but neither do I want to feel like I have been run over by a truck – which is how I feel when I overdo things – so I have to find my optimum ‘level’ The thing is, this keeps changing. What is difficult one ay is easy the next, etc…
But I am sure I will get there in the end, I have to if I want any kind of normal life…